On 10!!!!

I'm on day 2 of ignoring dude. My best friend told me that if he misses the attention...he will come after it. So i'm taking her advice. It's hard, but I gotta do what I gotta do. I can't keep chasing him.

And I am GEEKED because I get to see Obama at my school tomorrow. My mom and I are driving over there to be first in line to hear him.

And why did some man ask me for a side of cocaine with his coffee this morning? Who do I look like, Nicky Barnes or some shit? We don't play that in my store!!

Still in the process of moving, so I'll be blogging more often next week.

Love you all!

School...

...sucks. Seriously. I am sitting here finishing a rough draft for my final paper in my American Fiction class. I should have done this yesterday, but I was sleepy. And I was watching the debate. But after today I only have to go to two more saturday classes and I'm out!! I am so sick of school, but I only have 3 semesters left after this one so I can hang. But that isn't my main issue right now. This dude...has got me torn. We have been cool for like 7 or 8 years and we decided to take to another level this year. We aren't officially together, but somedays it seems like we are, and some days it seems like we arent. I tried to let him know my feelings but I don't think he took me seriously. Then I tried to leave him alone. I missed him like crazy. IDK what to do!!?? More later....

10

I feel like making a list today, so here are 10 things I wish would go away in 2008.

10. Desperate Housewives. That show has gotten way out of hand. I was done with it when Alfre Woodard left. Maybe it was because of the fine ass man who played her son.


9. Rap Music. Not all rap, but this stuff that is topping the charts now. If I hear one more song about moving my body around and around I am going to go crazy. Not funny crazy, but Sam Jackson in Coming to America crazy.

8. George W. Bush. Well, technically he leaves in 09, but we have something to look forward to this year...Obama 08!!!

7. T-Pain. He just irritates me. That's all.

6. Akon. He REALLY irritates me.

5. 3.00 a gallon gas prices. Wait, let me stop before 3 dollar gas turns into 4 dollar gas.

4. My job. Everyone should know where I work by now. I just hate it. But hopefully I'll have a new one very soon. Very very soon.

3. My extra 15 pounds. No matter how much I work out, and how well I eat, these last 15 pounds keep haunting me. They are the difference between me fitting my "lucky white shorts" or me "spilling out" of my shorts.

2. My singleness. Enough said.

1. Beyonce. I'm a fan, I have all the CD's, love love love her and DC, but I was reading a magazine the other day and saw her on back to back pages. Overkill. I am happy for the "supposed" marriage though.

Bored...

I am sitting in class so bored. I am so glad I decided aginst teaching. I don't think I can deal with children all day every day. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. My advisor said something this morning that made so much sense. She told me that since I liked children, that I should make working with kids my "advocation" instead of my "vocation". That's the best way to describe how I feel. I'm still going to be active with Big Brothers Big Sisters, and the YMCA among other things, but I will earn my money somewhere else. I think that I can serve the community better in other ways. Kids these days need teachers who are committed, focused and are passionate and I am not any of those things right now!

Life @ the crack house...

I work at Starbucks. It's an easy job, but it's a lot of foolishness that comes with it. Like District Managers. I understand, they have a job to do, but seriously? Do they have to be so ANAL about things. Like today, some kids kicked a dent in the wall. I clocked out because I knew I was gonna be the one who had to re-paint it. However, we got busy and I didn't have time to start on it. Then a group of people sat right next to the dent. So it really wasn't gonna get painted. So I cleaned up and got ready to leave when she came in. I was outside, on the phone with my mom walking to my car and she walked all in my path. I almost knocked her over, but I was trying to be nice. She didn't say hi, good morning, what's up or anything that you normally say when you greet someone.

DM said "You better take off your apron."

I was like "For what? I'm leaving."

DM: "It will get dirty"

Me: " I....am...leaving...to...go...home...and...I...will.....wash...it" (in my best slow voice)"

DM: "I don't want to contaminate it with outside air"

I raised an eyebrow at her and got in my car.

These are the things that make my job irritating. That, and training new people. But hopefully I will pick up a new gig this summer. Then I won't have to grind coffee ever again. Or steam milk.

I'm really upset that I have put almost 100 dollars in my funky little gas tank in the past 7 days. The farthest place I go is school and that's only 9 miles away!!! Grade A foolishness, I swear.

Wow!!

I have totally been neglecting my blog. Life is so crazy right now...I barely have time to sit on the computer and do my homework!!! As of Thursday, I will not be a special education major. Why? I observed a classroom one day and decided I did not want to spend the next 30 years screaming at 9 year olds. No sir. So I am going to major in communications, and hopefully I can work in public relations in a couple of years. Major switch, I know but I had to do it for my sanity. More later...

2008...

I haven't posted in forever but since I had a lot to get off my chest I decided to go ahead a write a little bit while I have some free time.

2008 has been so crazy! It seems like yesterday I was ringing in the new year and it's damn near April! School and these two jobs have been killing me! But it's all good, the busier I stay the more I can keep him off my mind. But wait...you don't know who "him" is. So let me backtrack...

Earlier this year I reconnected with an old friend in hopes that we could change the course of our relationship. I'm coming off a crazy 2007 relationship-wise, because the man I thought I was gonna marry turned out not to be the one for me. But anyways, I was ready to kinda jump back out there and do the dating thing again. Things were cool for a little while but as time went on I realized that some things should stay in the past. I don't wanna set myself up to be hurt again. And he is not worth it.

But oh well. I'll leave you with a few words from y favorite poet...Jill Scott.

"Wanna Be Loved"
Mmmm,
Don't,don't,don't,don't,
Don't,(don't,don't) don't,don't,don't,
(don't don't)
It's bad,It's bad
Sometimes s**t is bad... (don't)
Look,

Don't feel no pity for me
Cause I'm going through a couple things,
Life means change,
That's the way it goes,goes
All my life I had a constant burning
A strong deep,desire
An aching ambiguous,yearning,yearning,
yearning

For something better
For something bigger
For something wider
For something higher
And lots of regrets

Cause I ain't seem to found it yet
I've been searching around the world
Never knowing what to expect
I get sad sometimes
Yes I be mad sometimes
Cause I'm out here on the grind
Making mine
And I still can't seem to find
What I've been looking for
Opened so many doors
For real,yo
I just wanna be loved...

[Chorus:]
I just wanna be loved
Like everybody else does
I just wanna be loved
I just wanna be loved [Repeat x4]
I just wanna be loved