12:39 AM

so i'm really gonna post tomorrow. seriously. right now i'm gonna get in bed and watch hav plenty. night.

IDK

I've been slackin, but no one reads this so oh well. Anyway, I have been crazy busy with school and work. I am so so tired ;-)

Things with old dude are falling off, I haven't seen him in a month which is ok, but he hasn't called in two weeks. No facebook note, no nothing. I told him about how he makes me feel unimportant, but things haven't gotten better. I'm not sweating it. I can do so much better. I'm not putting up with the things that I have been letting slide for the past few years. It's all about me. I'm worth more. I think I deserve a phone call, or a little message if you can't call because you are out of the country. You could at least send a letter!! So whatever.

I do want to explore things with my best male friend. I really care for him, and I love him with all my heart, but am I feeling this way because I've been rejected by someone else? I don't want him to be the rebound so I'm gonna give it time. I would hate to ruin a 7 year friendship because I'm not emotionally ready. 

I'm scared to take the GRE! Seriously.

More later...

New EVERYTHING

My bad for the lack of posts. I needed time AWAY from the computer over my holiday break. But school is back in session, so I can return to my regularly scheduled blogging. 

So school was a mess this semester. I had a breakdown at the end of the semester due to everything just crashing down on me at once. I took some time to really think about what I wanted to do, and I found out a few things about myself in the process. I kind of needed the breakdown. It made me really think about what's important in life. 

My love life is still so-so. I still talk to the same guy, but he's never in town so we really aren't connecting. I guess if we had a stronger bond in the first place things would be easier. I'm praying over it. I'm excited to see my boo Lloyd on Valentine's Day! Yay!! Such a cutie.

I still have my "radio" crush...how I wish I could be in the same place as him again. 

I'm really into personal growth for the 09. Last year it was about making moves with school. Now it's about making moves with Brittany. 

More later....My PRESIDENT IS BLACK!!!!

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Languages are probably Physical Touch and Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Physical Touch:	9
Quality Time:	9
Words of Affirmation:	8
Acts of Service:	4
Receiving Gifts:	0

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

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I liked to be touched. When my old guy "M" and I used to be in the car, he ALWAYS held my hand while he drove. And when we slept, I always woke up with him all on my back with his arms around me....Miss those days.

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It's fianls week...more later.

Little Miss Perfect.

I am TIRED. Seriously. I cannot deal anymore. School is kickin my ass. Work is kickin my ass. My family kicks my ass. I am tired of putting on a front and acting like everything is ok in my life. It's not. I know people always say "there are people who have it worse than you" blah blah BLAH. Right now, I could care less. I've been homeless before and I didn't feel as shitty as I do right now. So save that shit.

1. I HATE school. Seriously. I have no idea about what I really want to do. I wanted to teach for so long but when I really got into it I hated it. I changed my major and now I'm not sure about it. Maybe it's because this semester has been really hard and stressful, but I am just not with it. I can't focus, can't remember anything. I'm not my usual self. Maybe things will get better but idk.

2. I HATE men. This guy has been testing me all semester, and when I try not to think about him, I think about him more.

3. I am TIRED. So tired of playing "Little Miss Perfect" and making everything seem ok. It's not. Little Miss Perfect is tired of smiling.

More later. I needed a break from my work.

Side Chick Bullshit....

So this is my problem...

Why is it that when I meet men, they always seem to be dating someone else and want to have me as their piece on the side?

Is there a sign on my forehead that says "Perfect Side Chick"???
I don't give it up real soon to men, I don't allow them to drag me along (well maybe once, but that was years ago), I don't excuse stupid shit that they do.

So why am I always the SIDE CHICK!!!???

I'm sick of it, I deserve to be the ONLY (not main, but ONLY dammit) girlfriend that you have. And I will accept nothing less from this day forward. I can do so much better.

So...why do some men choose certain females to be their chick on the side? What criteria doe she need to fulfill? Let me know so I can stop it!!!!

Holidays and foolishness...

So let me just say that I have a new crush....That is all I'm gonna say about that.

Thanksgiving was nice, kicked it with family and I got to see Noel Gourdin, Angie Stone and Anthony Hamilton in concert. It was a damn good show!

I mended fences with the female friend I was talking about last week. She and I had a nice little talk that consisted of me telling her to tell ME whatever she feels I need to know. Not some tired ass man. I'm still not speaking to him though, he isn't my friend like she is. But I will still keep her at arms length.

Isn't our President fine??!!! I mean, the sexiness that I saw when he announced his National Security Team this morning made me get up and get on it!!!

I really don't want to go to work, I have so much math review to do before finals, I am about to lose it. This will NOT be one of my better semesters.

How was your holiday???