I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Languages are probably Physical Touch and Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Physical Touch:	9
Quality Time:	9
Words of Affirmation:	8
Acts of Service:	4
Receiving Gifts:	0

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

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I liked to be touched. When my old guy "M" and I used to be in the car, he ALWAYS held my hand while he drove. And when we slept, I always woke up with him all on my back with his arms around me....Miss those days.

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It's fianls week...more later.

Little Miss Perfect.

I am TIRED. Seriously. I cannot deal anymore. School is kickin my ass. Work is kickin my ass. My family kicks my ass. I am tired of putting on a front and acting like everything is ok in my life. It's not. I know people always say "there are people who have it worse than you" blah blah BLAH. Right now, I could care less. I've been homeless before and I didn't feel as shitty as I do right now. So save that shit.

1. I HATE school. Seriously. I have no idea about what I really want to do. I wanted to teach for so long but when I really got into it I hated it. I changed my major and now I'm not sure about it. Maybe it's because this semester has been really hard and stressful, but I am just not with it. I can't focus, can't remember anything. I'm not my usual self. Maybe things will get better but idk.

2. I HATE men. This guy has been testing me all semester, and when I try not to think about him, I think about him more.

3. I am TIRED. So tired of playing "Little Miss Perfect" and making everything seem ok. It's not. Little Miss Perfect is tired of smiling.

More later. I needed a break from my work.

Side Chick Bullshit....

So this is my problem...

Why is it that when I meet men, they always seem to be dating someone else and want to have me as their piece on the side?

Is there a sign on my forehead that says "Perfect Side Chick"???
I don't give it up real soon to men, I don't allow them to drag me along (well maybe once, but that was years ago), I don't excuse stupid shit that they do.

So why am I always the SIDE CHICK!!!???

I'm sick of it, I deserve to be the ONLY (not main, but ONLY dammit) girlfriend that you have. And I will accept nothing less from this day forward. I can do so much better.

So...why do some men choose certain females to be their chick on the side? What criteria doe she need to fulfill? Let me know so I can stop it!!!!

Holidays and foolishness...

So let me just say that I have a new crush....That is all I'm gonna say about that.

Thanksgiving was nice, kicked it with family and I got to see Noel Gourdin, Angie Stone and Anthony Hamilton in concert. It was a damn good show!

I mended fences with the female friend I was talking about last week. She and I had a nice little talk that consisted of me telling her to tell ME whatever she feels I need to know. Not some tired ass man. I'm still not speaking to him though, he isn't my friend like she is. But I will still keep her at arms length.

Isn't our President fine??!!! I mean, the sexiness that I saw when he announced his National Security Team this morning made me get up and get on it!!!

I really don't want to go to work, I have so much math review to do before finals, I am about to lose it. This will NOT be one of my better semesters.

How was your holiday???

Story of my life...

So I decided to let both of the people from my last post go. When she decides to be a friend, and be honest....we can be cool again. As for him...erased!! I even deleted it from mytmobile.com so i wouldn't be tempted to put it back in my phone. I WILL NOT be a secret friend!!

I'm listening to "Let it go" by Keyshia Cole, and I'm finally realizing that I have to get rid of all of these negative people in my life. I am always the type that gives second and third chances when it's not necessary. And I'm sick of it!!!

More later....

Messy

Scratch that last post, I was emotional for a sec. Had to get over it. This past weekend was HILARIOUS!!! My friends are so "special" sometimes. Here's what happened:

I used to "kick it" with a guy that I will call K. K and I were never serious, just real cool and we liked to have fun with each other. We kinda drifted apart during the summer when M. came back into my life.

My friend D. got married in May when I was still talking to K. She knew all about it, encouraged me to take it the next step, blah blah blah. It wasn't right at them time, but I kept in touch with him because he was cool.

Anyway, K and I have been talking more lately since M has been showing his ass and I made a mention about it to D thinking that she would be happy. She was happy when speaking to me, but she runs back to K and tells him that she hates to see us together, and it makes her realize what she would've had in him. K tells me all of this and I was shocked cuz I didn't even know they had a thing going on. And they both knew about each others place in my life. So that kinda pissed me off because one second she is encouraging me to talk to him, and the next she is throwing all kinds of salt in my game. Oh and did I forget to mention that she is MARRIED!!! No one told her to get married at a young age, she should have sowed her wild oats a lil more if she's getting mad over this. The really f----d up thing about it is that she won't mention it to me. This is all coming from K. Which makes the whole thing a bit shady to me. HE told me that if we were to continue to talk, that I would have to tell her that he and I are done. What type of shit is that??!!!

What should I do about this??

Do you...?

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Ne-Yo - Do You

I was thinking about an old flame from high school. I really dislike him, but for some reason he has been in my thoughts lately. This song makes me think of the last time we spoke. He's doing well now, much more mature than he was even a year ago. But I gotta get him out of my brain!!!

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