Monday, March 17, 2008

2008...

I haven't posted in forever but since I had a lot to get off my chest I decided to go ahead a write a little bit while I have some free time.

2008 has been so crazy! It seems like yesterday I was ringing in the new year and it's damn near April! School and these two jobs have been killing me! But it's all good, the busier I stay the more I can keep him off my mind. But wait...you don't know who "him" is. So let me backtrack...

Earlier this year I reconnected with an old friend in hopes that we could change the course of our relationship. I'm coming off a crazy 2007 relationship-wise, because the man I thought I was gonna marry turned out not to be the one for me. But anyways, I was ready to kinda jump back out there and do the dating thing again. Things were cool for a little while but as time went on I realized that some things should stay in the past. I don't wanna set myself up to be hurt again. And he is not worth it.

But oh well. I'll leave you with a few words from y favorite poet...Jill Scott.

"Wanna Be Loved"
Mmmm,
Don't,don't,don't,don't,
Don't,(don't,don't) don't,don't,don't,
(don't don't)
It's bad,It's bad
Sometimes s**t is bad... (don't)
Look,

Don't feel no pity for me
Cause I'm going through a couple things,
Life means change,
That's the way it goes,goes
All my life I had a constant burning
A strong deep,desire
An aching ambiguous,yearning,yearning,
yearning

For something better
For something bigger
For something wider
For something higher
And lots of regrets

Cause I ain't seem to found it yet
I've been searching around the world
Never knowing what to expect
I get sad sometimes
Yes I be mad sometimes
Cause I'm out here on the grind
Making mine
And I still can't seem to find
What I've been looking for
Opened so many doors
For real,yo
I just wanna be loved...

[Chorus:]
I just wanna be loved
Like everybody else does
I just wanna be loved
I just wanna be loved [Repeat x4]
I just wanna be loved

perfectly imperfect...