My bad for not writing more (well not that anyone reads this thing) but in case someone does, it's been crazy! I am so glad that this year is coming to a close. I learned so much in 2007, I finally feel like I am honestly a grown up now. One major lesson that I have learned is not to settle for less that what I deserve. I so realize that now. The person that I thought would always be my #1, the man that I had put all of my time and energy into for over two years, turned on me over some he said, she said mess. Most people call me picky about my men, but I have a darn good reason. I REFUSE to settle for a man who does not treat me with respect, who is not honest with me even when it makes me mad, who does not value me and and listen to my innermost dreams and concerns and thoughts. I want a man in my life who gives back what I give to him, and then some. I feel like I have given so much to people and it has left me feeling empty. That's why I'm focused on doing ME right now. I want to fill myself up before I can give anything else out.
**Random thought**
Why did 7 police cars just fly down my wet street? One of them almost hit the Camry. I love my lil car, I would have acted up if my mirror was on the ground in the morning.
**I'm done**
But Brittany needs to do what makes HER happy. Not what some man likes. With the last guy that I dated, I felt like I had to be someone else in order for him and his family to accept me. I understand that around his moms and stuff that I can't curse or wear my leopard print booty shorts, but I refuse to change the person that I am because of YOUR standards. A strong, educated, beautiful black woman raised me right. So if you don't like me, sorry for ya.
**Random thought 2**
I see a fire truck now. And a bunch of people hopping out of cars and stuff. Uh-oh. I hate living in the hood I swear. I can't defend it any longer.
**done**
I wanna give a big hug to my Uncle Clayton. He is battling bone cancer right now and they don't think he is going to make it much longer. He was always my favorite uncle, he was my grandfathers' younger brother and he was the glue that kept our family together. He took over as a father role for my mom and a grandad role for me after my grandfather passed in 1995. I am going to miss him so much!
Happy Thanksgiving to all, I have so much to be thankful for, my health, my family, my abilities. GOD IS GOOD!!!
See ya xoxoxox
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
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