I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Languages are probably Physical Touch and Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Physical Touch:	9
Quality Time:	9
Words of Affirmation:	8
Acts of Service:	4
Receiving Gifts:	0

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

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I liked to be touched. When my old guy "M" and I used to be in the car, he ALWAYS held my hand while he drove. And when we slept, I always woke up with him all on my back with his arms around me....Miss those days.

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It's fianls week...more later.

Little Miss Perfect.

I am TIRED. Seriously. I cannot deal anymore. School is kickin my ass. Work is kickin my ass. My family kicks my ass. I am tired of putting on a front and acting like everything is ok in my life. It's not. I know people always say "there are people who have it worse than you" blah blah BLAH. Right now, I could care less. I've been homeless before and I didn't feel as shitty as I do right now. So save that shit.

1. I HATE school. Seriously. I have no idea about what I really want to do. I wanted to teach for so long but when I really got into it I hated it. I changed my major and now I'm not sure about it. Maybe it's because this semester has been really hard and stressful, but I am just not with it. I can't focus, can't remember anything. I'm not my usual self. Maybe things will get better but idk.

2. I HATE men. This guy has been testing me all semester, and when I try not to think about him, I think about him more.

3. I am TIRED. So tired of playing "Little Miss Perfect" and making everything seem ok. It's not. Little Miss Perfect is tired of smiling.

More later. I needed a break from my work.

Side Chick Bullshit....

So this is my problem...

Why is it that when I meet men, they always seem to be dating someone else and want to have me as their piece on the side?

Is there a sign on my forehead that says "Perfect Side Chick"???
I don't give it up real soon to men, I don't allow them to drag me along (well maybe once, but that was years ago), I don't excuse stupid shit that they do.

So why am I always the SIDE CHICK!!!???

I'm sick of it, I deserve to be the ONLY (not main, but ONLY dammit) girlfriend that you have. And I will accept nothing less from this day forward. I can do so much better.

So...why do some men choose certain females to be their chick on the side? What criteria doe she need to fulfill? Let me know so I can stop it!!!!

Holidays and foolishness...

So let me just say that I have a new crush....That is all I'm gonna say about that.

Thanksgiving was nice, kicked it with family and I got to see Noel Gourdin, Angie Stone and Anthony Hamilton in concert. It was a damn good show!

I mended fences with the female friend I was talking about last week. She and I had a nice little talk that consisted of me telling her to tell ME whatever she feels I need to know. Not some tired ass man. I'm still not speaking to him though, he isn't my friend like she is. But I will still keep her at arms length.

Isn't our President fine??!!! I mean, the sexiness that I saw when he announced his National Security Team this morning made me get up and get on it!!!

I really don't want to go to work, I have so much math review to do before finals, I am about to lose it. This will NOT be one of my better semesters.

How was your holiday???

Story of my life...

So I decided to let both of the people from my last post go. When she decides to be a friend, and be honest....we can be cool again. As for him...erased!! I even deleted it from mytmobile.com so i wouldn't be tempted to put it back in my phone. I WILL NOT be a secret friend!!

I'm listening to "Let it go" by Keyshia Cole, and I'm finally realizing that I have to get rid of all of these negative people in my life. I am always the type that gives second and third chances when it's not necessary. And I'm sick of it!!!

More later....

Messy

Scratch that last post, I was emotional for a sec. Had to get over it. This past weekend was HILARIOUS!!! My friends are so "special" sometimes. Here's what happened:

I used to "kick it" with a guy that I will call K. K and I were never serious, just real cool and we liked to have fun with each other. We kinda drifted apart during the summer when M. came back into my life.

My friend D. got married in May when I was still talking to K. She knew all about it, encouraged me to take it the next step, blah blah blah. It wasn't right at them time, but I kept in touch with him because he was cool.

Anyway, K and I have been talking more lately since M has been showing his ass and I made a mention about it to D thinking that she would be happy. She was happy when speaking to me, but she runs back to K and tells him that she hates to see us together, and it makes her realize what she would've had in him. K tells me all of this and I was shocked cuz I didn't even know they had a thing going on. And they both knew about each others place in my life. So that kinda pissed me off because one second she is encouraging me to talk to him, and the next she is throwing all kinds of salt in my game. Oh and did I forget to mention that she is MARRIED!!! No one told her to get married at a young age, she should have sowed her wild oats a lil more if she's getting mad over this. The really f----d up thing about it is that she won't mention it to me. This is all coming from K. Which makes the whole thing a bit shady to me. HE told me that if we were to continue to talk, that I would have to tell her that he and I are done. What type of shit is that??!!!

What should I do about this??

Do you...?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fTKSsF8XmDE


Ne-Yo - Do You

I was thinking about an old flame from high school. I really dislike him, but for some reason he has been in my thoughts lately. This song makes me think of the last time we spoke. He's doing well now, much more mature than he was even a year ago. But I gotta get him out of my brain!!!

More later....

So...

Yay my new Bible came in the mail today!! Now I don't have to carry my old teen Bible from 8th grade to church anymore. That thing was huge!

How was your weekend? Mine was rather uneventful, went to my friends baby shower Saturday, watched her in-laws show out, they are hilarious. It rained all weekend so I stayed in so I wouldn't melt ;)

Another friend had a baby last week, he is so tiny!! Love other peoples kids. I guess I'm at the age where everyone is starting to get married and have kids (not in that order). That makes me wonder, when will it happen for me?

I'm picky as hell, and I have a hard time really being comfortable with people (especially men). Maybe that's why I've never really been hurt by a guy, I don't let them affect me like that. I just want someone I can be myself with. But first, I have to like being myself.

School is very stressful!!! I'll be so glad when Dec. 2010 comes. Had I kept my original major, I would be out next December, but I like being difficult.

I love that picture of me. My best friend and I had went to a bar, and drowned all of our sorrows in alcohol. While we were waiting on her sister to pick us up, I had the great idea to have a mini photo shoot. I was hurt. Then I had to use the restroom and I got lost in this fancy hotel across the street. We went to white castle afterwards and the girl wouldn't let me use it even though I had bought 10 dollars worth of food. Heifer. That was the last time I drank any alcohol really.

Well, more tomorrow. Kisses!!!

A New Day...

The next guy I date will have to be very patient. I plan on taking things really slow with him. No more late night visits, or just sitting around at the house until we are serious. I hate when you rush into something with a guy, and you look up 6 months later and be like..."What happened here?" I want to be involved in a TRUE courtship. People wanna get too close, too fast these days. And that's how some relationships fail. You get too physical before you are connected emotionally and spiritually. I'm so much better than what I allow myself to go through. So I'm about to start acting like it.

Moving on...

I lost 2 pounds on my first week of weight watchers. It was hard to stop snacking so much, but I'm making it. I really want to get in shape for my health, I am too young to be so tired, and sick all of the time. And wearing a two piece is a good thing to look forward to ;)

I wonder what I am going to do about my "Summer Love" He's graduating soon and is talking about moving away. I have gotten attached to him though, so this kinda sucks. I guess I should let it go but that's easier said than done. He's not what I truly want though, so I guess I should move on to someone better...but I like him ;(

I have a married guy friend who I have always had a crush on. I swear if I were three years older, I would have given his wife a run while they were dating! But I guess everyone ends up with who they are supposed to be with. He told me that the hardest thing about marriage, in his opinion, was keeping things new between them. Since I've never had a relationship longer than 9 months, I know nothing about that.

What are your ideas about marriage?

Peace---Britt

I suck at this...

So it's been 2 months since I last posted...And things have changed!!!

First off...My President is Black....and the Grand Prix is blue!!! (Love, Love Jeezy!)

Big ups to PRESIDENT Barack Obama!! I was one of the many many people who got up and stood in line to vote! I almost cried as I filled in the circle by his name! Crazy!!

So I have cleaned the slate, and got a new group of guys. I just met one on Tuesday, so we will see about him...

Today I have done absolutely nothing. It feels good...

School is becoming a thorn is my side....

I see Beyonce didn't listen to me when I asked her ass not to release any more music till 2010...

I Love, Love, Love, Mint Condition's old jam "You Send Me Swinging"

Gas is finally below 2.00 in Louisville yay!!!

More later....

Part 2

This summer has been crazy!!! I haven't been on here in months and there is so much for me to say! Maybe I should make a list.

1. I totaled my car on Father's Day. I'm ok now, but I wasn't for a while. I miss Tinkerbell 1, but I LOVE Tinkerbell 2!!!

2. I cut loose the old dude, and moved on to another one. He's f-ing up right now though, so I may be 100% single for my birthday.

3. Working at Starbucks has taught me a lot. My last day is the 12th! Maybe I'll do a post listing the top 10 things I've learned.

4. Men suck. Some men do at least.

5. I love my mother!! She is paying my insurance for me so I can stay part time at my job an focus on school.

6. You only have a few true friends in this world. Keep them close.

7. Love is such a beautiful thing. I attended so many weddings this summer ; ( Hopefully I'll find it.

8. School sucks. Seriously. It's so freakin expensive! I mean damn, why does a book cost 200 dollars?

I'll add more later, i'm so slow today!

I'm BACK!!!

It's been what, 4 months since I last posted???!!! And A LOT has went down since then!! I'll probably post during my 11:00 class, since I can't understand her ass. UGH!!!!

Derby!!

The Kentucky Derby is next weekend and I don't have shit to wear. I wanna go out every night but my pockets aren't feeling that, especially since my car payment is due next week. So I will have to choose wisely.

On day 4 of ignoring dude. It's making me feel a lot better. Maybe this time I can last a whole week...

Looking for some paint for my room. I'm moving out later this year, but my mama said I can still paint my new room the way I want. Thanks mama!!!

And I'm looking for a new job. Anyone know of anything that a communications minor can do lol!?

More later....

On 10!!!!

I'm on day 2 of ignoring dude. My best friend told me that if he misses the attention...he will come after it. So i'm taking her advice. It's hard, but I gotta do what I gotta do. I can't keep chasing him.

And I am GEEKED because I get to see Obama at my school tomorrow. My mom and I are driving over there to be first in line to hear him.

And why did some man ask me for a side of cocaine with his coffee this morning? Who do I look like, Nicky Barnes or some shit? We don't play that in my store!!

Still in the process of moving, so I'll be blogging more often next week.

Love you all!

School...

...sucks. Seriously. I am sitting here finishing a rough draft for my final paper in my American Fiction class. I should have done this yesterday, but I was sleepy. And I was watching the debate. But after today I only have to go to two more saturday classes and I'm out!! I am so sick of school, but I only have 3 semesters left after this one so I can hang. But that isn't my main issue right now. This dude...has got me torn. We have been cool for like 7 or 8 years and we decided to take to another level this year. We aren't officially together, but somedays it seems like we are, and some days it seems like we arent. I tried to let him know my feelings but I don't think he took me seriously. Then I tried to leave him alone. I missed him like crazy. IDK what to do!!?? More later....

10

I feel like making a list today, so here are 10 things I wish would go away in 2008.

10. Desperate Housewives. That show has gotten way out of hand. I was done with it when Alfre Woodard left. Maybe it was because of the fine ass man who played her son.


9. Rap Music. Not all rap, but this stuff that is topping the charts now. If I hear one more song about moving my body around and around I am going to go crazy. Not funny crazy, but Sam Jackson in Coming to America crazy.

8. George W. Bush. Well, technically he leaves in 09, but we have something to look forward to this year...Obama 08!!!

7. T-Pain. He just irritates me. That's all.

6. Akon. He REALLY irritates me.

5. 3.00 a gallon gas prices. Wait, let me stop before 3 dollar gas turns into 4 dollar gas.

4. My job. Everyone should know where I work by now. I just hate it. But hopefully I'll have a new one very soon. Very very soon.

3. My extra 15 pounds. No matter how much I work out, and how well I eat, these last 15 pounds keep haunting me. They are the difference between me fitting my "lucky white shorts" or me "spilling out" of my shorts.

2. My singleness. Enough said.

1. Beyonce. I'm a fan, I have all the CD's, love love love her and DC, but I was reading a magazine the other day and saw her on back to back pages. Overkill. I am happy for the "supposed" marriage though.

Bored...

I am sitting in class so bored. I am so glad I decided aginst teaching. I don't think I can deal with children all day every day. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. My advisor said something this morning that made so much sense. She told me that since I liked children, that I should make working with kids my "advocation" instead of my "vocation". That's the best way to describe how I feel. I'm still going to be active with Big Brothers Big Sisters, and the YMCA among other things, but I will earn my money somewhere else. I think that I can serve the community better in other ways. Kids these days need teachers who are committed, focused and are passionate and I am not any of those things right now!

Life @ the crack house...

I work at Starbucks. It's an easy job, but it's a lot of foolishness that comes with it. Like District Managers. I understand, they have a job to do, but seriously? Do they have to be so ANAL about things. Like today, some kids kicked a dent in the wall. I clocked out because I knew I was gonna be the one who had to re-paint it. However, we got busy and I didn't have time to start on it. Then a group of people sat right next to the dent. So it really wasn't gonna get painted. So I cleaned up and got ready to leave when she came in. I was outside, on the phone with my mom walking to my car and she walked all in my path. I almost knocked her over, but I was trying to be nice. She didn't say hi, good morning, what's up or anything that you normally say when you greet someone.

DM said "You better take off your apron."

I was like "For what? I'm leaving."

DM: "It will get dirty"

Me: " I....am...leaving...to...go...home...and...I...will.....wash...it" (in my best slow voice)"

DM: "I don't want to contaminate it with outside air"

I raised an eyebrow at her and got in my car.

These are the things that make my job irritating. That, and training new people. But hopefully I will pick up a new gig this summer. Then I won't have to grind coffee ever again. Or steam milk.

I'm really upset that I have put almost 100 dollars in my funky little gas tank in the past 7 days. The farthest place I go is school and that's only 9 miles away!!! Grade A foolishness, I swear.

Wow!!

I have totally been neglecting my blog. Life is so crazy right now...I barely have time to sit on the computer and do my homework!!! As of Thursday, I will not be a special education major. Why? I observed a classroom one day and decided I did not want to spend the next 30 years screaming at 9 year olds. No sir. So I am going to major in communications, and hopefully I can work in public relations in a couple of years. Major switch, I know but I had to do it for my sanity. More later...

2008...

I haven't posted in forever but since I had a lot to get off my chest I decided to go ahead a write a little bit while I have some free time.

2008 has been so crazy! It seems like yesterday I was ringing in the new year and it's damn near April! School and these two jobs have been killing me! But it's all good, the busier I stay the more I can keep him off my mind. But wait...you don't know who "him" is. So let me backtrack...

Earlier this year I reconnected with an old friend in hopes that we could change the course of our relationship. I'm coming off a crazy 2007 relationship-wise, because the man I thought I was gonna marry turned out not to be the one for me. But anyways, I was ready to kinda jump back out there and do the dating thing again. Things were cool for a little while but as time went on I realized that some things should stay in the past. I don't wanna set myself up to be hurt again. And he is not worth it.

But oh well. I'll leave you with a few words from y favorite poet...Jill Scott.

"Wanna Be Loved"
Mmmm,
Don't,don't,don't,don't,
Don't,(don't,don't) don't,don't,don't,
(don't don't)
It's bad,It's bad
Sometimes s**t is bad... (don't)
Look,

Don't feel no pity for me
Cause I'm going through a couple things,
Life means change,
That's the way it goes,goes
All my life I had a constant burning
A strong deep,desire
An aching ambiguous,yearning,yearning,
yearning

For something better
For something bigger
For something wider
For something higher
And lots of regrets

Cause I ain't seem to found it yet
I've been searching around the world
Never knowing what to expect
I get sad sometimes
Yes I be mad sometimes
Cause I'm out here on the grind
Making mine
And I still can't seem to find
What I've been looking for
Opened so many doors
For real,yo
I just wanna be loved...

[Chorus:]
I just wanna be loved
Like everybody else does
I just wanna be loved
I just wanna be loved [Repeat x4]
I just wanna be loved